I think I finally found someone that likes me for me. Which is really good, he makes me smile and laugh like I haven't in a long time. He is so adroable and awkward, I love it. He tells me how beautiful I am all the time. It's something that I'm not quite used to... yet. But at the same time I am beyond terrified how bad it could end, if it would. I haven't know him that long, but I feel this connection that I don't think I've had with anyone else. I'm not inlove with him, but, I really like him, so I really hope he likes me too. I have been so fed up with games from other people, that I hope he isn't going to screw me over. But he is amazing. He has this one dimple when he smiles and I can't hep but want to look at it all the time. His voice sends chills down my ears, I could listen to him talk all day. He is so tall, I love it. Not like other guys, he's beautiful, inside and out. I just hope this works out.
I don't expect anyone to like this.. I just need to get this off my chest. Like badly. Dear you, You said you would always be here for me. Well where the hell are you at?.. I haven't heard from you in what seems months. I know we talk, but only every few weeks. We use to talk, like alllll the time. What changed that? Our conversations have gone to crap & the worse part is, no matter what, I'm always going to be thinking of you. I can't help it but feel this way towards you.. I don't like what you do to me. I've needed you more than ever right now & you know what, you're not here. I tried so hard not loose you... "I promise, I'll always be here for you. I'm not going to leave like the others.." do you remember that? You said that. You may say I'm not loosing you, that you're working everyday now & don't have time to talk or text or anything anymore. But yet, I see your instagram & your friends profiles. So you're to busy to talk to me but not anybody else?? I've just wanted to tell you all thiis, but..but I can't...I'm scared of what you'll say or that you'll say another excuse & the sad part, I'll probably believe it, even if I know it's not true, I still accept it. Do you even think about me anymore? I think about you like freaking crazy. I hate it. This is not healthy, for me that is. I'm not obssessed with you, I promise, it's just that I'm so use to talk to you everyday & now none. It's a big change. I just wish you'd open your eyes & if you do think about me, I wish you would tell me. Just say something, please! This is me saying something to you now, even I know theres like a 99% chance you won't see this; I love you so much & I miss you.
You know that guy that describes a girl just like you, but doesn't want you. Just someone exactly like you? Well I'm in that situation, he wants someone like me, but won't take the chance to date me. He loves me & I'm hopelessy inlove with him. I finally had the courage to ask him why not me?. I'm right here infront of him & he keeps getting his heart broken\ by other girls. His response was this; "I love you, I really do. I know you need me, I can feel it. I know that I love you, & I find no shame in saying it or feeling it. But you are a chance that I don't want to take. I don't want to loose you, even if I know I won't, I still don't want to risk it. But at the same time, not taking the chance of being with you is hurting me. Knowing what could be between us. But I still don't want to take the chance, What if something happens? I couldn't stand to loose you... But I love you beautiful, please just always remember that" I finally understand now. & that's okay with me. Yes it hurts, but what if he's right? I couldn't stand to loose him either. & so for all you girls out there who are hoplessly inlove with your bestfriend. Just remember that he/she might not want to take the chance of loosing you, because maybe they do want you more than you may think.
You are not just any guy . You are the guy tha makes me feel good about myself. You are my bestfriend. You are the guy that makes funny jokes. The guy that tries to do anything to make me feel better, You are the guy that has always been there for me. & You are the guy that I wish I could have. so don't you see, you are not just any guy through my eyes.
Teacher: I am you're new teacher. Teacher: *standsup* Taecher: now if anyone thinks they are stupid will you please stand up. Boy: Raises his hand Teacher: Okay , Johnny. Why do you think you're dumb. *he stands up* Boy: Oh I don't , I just didn't want you to feel left out .. Class: :O