Crazy_Beautiful202
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9 years ago
I just got your comment.
I wanted to post back too tell you how much I appreciate your comment. It all means so much to me, knowing that I'm being heard.
Thank you again. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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9 years ago
Can you believe it's been over a year since caleb has passed away? reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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9 years ago
There isn't one doubt in my mind that you wouldn't be proud of how far Aubree and the little ones have come so far. It's crazy too think about you being gone for a year already. You were so outspoken and so easy to talk too with such great advice. I never understood the reason why God takes the most loved ones from us and leaves us feeling so empty and such a big void in our hearts. Kenley has your blue eyes and you can hear you in Braxton's laugh. Those two babes are so blessed to have had you as a daddy and it's so heartbreaking that you're not here to watch them grow up, but we all know that you're watching over them and keeping them out of harms way.
I hope Heaven is all that you have dreamed it would be. I can't wait to receive my spot up there when my time comes.
Rest In Heaven Caleb. You're missed by so many. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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9 years ago
If you go to my page, I have a picture of Shayla and I on my profile and a long thing to read below it.
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Crazy_Beautiful202
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9 years ago
Thanks. I'll remember that. It means a lot to me, I really do appreciate it. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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9 years ago
It's devastating.. I'm devastated.. and trust me, I'm trying to hang on and keep moving forward the best that I can. /: reply
foreverbrokenhearted
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9 years ago
It must be! I can't imagine what you're going through! Just trust me when I say this, I'll always be there for you! <3 reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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9 years ago
Thanks. I'll remember that. It means a lot to me, I really do appreciate it. reply
foreverbrokenhearted
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9 years ago
You're best friend's story :'( please please stay strong <33 reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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9 years ago
It's devastating.. I'm devastated.. and trust me, I'm trying to hang on and keep moving forward the best that I can. /: reply
foreverbrokenhearted
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9 years ago
It must be! I can't imagine what you're going through! Just trust me when I say this, I'll always be there for you! <3 reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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9 years ago
Thanks. I'll remember that. It means a lot to me, I really do appreciate it. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
Well, I'm very sorry for your loss. When I was in 8th grade, A girl in my grade killed herself. At that time, It was a very shocking and hard thing to move forward from, but within time, it gets easier. Not now, not tomorrow, not months from now, but time does and will take it's toll and it will become easier.
I didn't exactly lose my best friend to suicide, but if you read my profile, it explains how I found out about it and what has happened. Ever since, I've let my life spiral out of my control. I just got so caught up in grief that I completely forgot that I'm alive and I have the chance to live.. Me being able to graduate is riding on the line right now, I have a drinking problem and I've been caught up on pain killers, anything to subside the pain for just a little while. I've been getting help, counseling and everything so hopefully it gets better.. But I can just tell from now, this summer is going to be absolute hell without her and far after.
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Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
Also, If you ever need someone to vent to or anything, just leave a comment on my page and I'd be more than happy to help out as much as I can. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
Like I've said before, never take anything for granted. Tomorrow isn't promised for anybody and that goes out to everybody. I don't have many friends either.. I'm a girl who you'd see out at the parties on the weekend and barley awake during school. Everyone who I usually talk to are the ones who always ask me where the party is at and honestly, if I didn't party, I wouldn't know half of them nor would they talk to me.
Shayla and I had a bond the first time we even talked and we hit off from there. I didn't need anybody as long as I had her to talk too or if we weren't by each other we could at least text. She is supposed to be graduating this year and I can't even think of it as her being gone without falling to my knees and crying. I'm going to keep on pushing forward though and I'm going to accomplish my goals I've set for myself and I know that if she was here, she would be doing the same thing and keep her loved ones near and I know that she would want the same thing for me as well.
You aren't unloved. I can't stress that enough. If you weren't meant to be alive and breathing right now, Trust me, you wouldn't be. There is a reason you're still here on this earth and I mean it and you may have to wait your entire life time for your answer as to why but I know that you will get the answer you've been waiting for.
Sometimes, you gotta live for the ones who can't do it anymore.
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Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
It does.. Because I can't even begin to explain what I wouldn't give to have her back again. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
THank you. I put it on there in hopes of it to actually be read. It's so incredibly hard. I
I'm happy you read it though, it means a lot to mee. She was my best friend, my main girl.
Just remember, never take anyone you love for granted because I did ''cause I always thought I'd have a tomorrow to apologize or a tomorrow to tell them how I feel about a certain thing.. I was up until 6 in the morning that night and that's why I wanted to sleep in longer and I would always tell her to come over and come into my room and wake me up herself but I just ignored it for some reason that morning and I regret it with everything inside me.. Because I miss her and my life isn't the same and it never will be.
But thank you for commenting and reading it, it means a lot to me. reply
ForeverSouless
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1 decade ago
I'm glad to have read it. And stories like your really show just how short life is and that you cannot take anything for granted. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
It does.. Because I can't even begin to explain what I wouldn't give to have her back again. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
I just seen your comment you made on my profile and I'm sorry I didn't get back to you sooner.
I'm glad that I know someone read it. I was bawling my eyes out while I typed the whole thing out. It's a nightmare. She was my main girl, my best friend.
I'm happy you were touched by it. Just please know to never take your loved ones for granted, ever. If you have something you want to tell someone you care about but you don't think you should, do it. Because you will regret it when you won't be able to have that chance anymore and you knew you once did and Always live like it's your last day because tomorrow isn't promised. Just remember that.
Get back to meee. (: reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
You have no idea how much that means to me.. I want to be heard by people from all different places. I want to know that I make a quote and that it's going to be read and liked and maybe change someone's life or maybe their outlook on something. Yes, I lost someone who I loved more than I loved myself almost 4 months ago.. I haven't and will never be the same person. It almost kills me thinking how much I've took for granted and all the times I had with her for granted when I knew I never should have but I still did, thinking that there is always going to be a tomorrow.. A tomorrow to say I'm sorry.. A tomorrow to say I love you.. A tomorrow to see the person who you swore you couldn't ever live without.. After how many times I've said that I wouldn't be able to live without my best friend, my biggest nightmare became reality.. A broken and devastating and excruciating painful reality. I'm so glad to know that someone has been through something similar so they can relate and be able to understand more about the feelings that come with this.. People who haven't experienced something like this doesn't even know the pain and permanence this has..
I'm here if you need anything also!
Thank you for commenting once again. It means a lot! reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
I saw your quotes, I thought I'd let you know, you're so inspiring. Your quotes, can bring tears to my eyes. I really don't get how you can do it.
My advice to you for whenever you're feeling super low ; Put your best face on for the world, fake another smile and just pretend. But you're just putting off the pain, nothing's ever really going to change. So let it hurt, let it bleed, let it take you down right down to your knees. Let it burn to the worst degree, it may not be what you want but it's what you need. Sometimes the only way around it, is to let love do it's work, and let it hurt.
I'm always here if you ever need anything, don't hesitate to ask. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
Dear, ive went through all of your quotes, I smiled at every single one besides one of them, " it scares the out of.. that this time next year, ill be dead." After that, I just broke down. Getting to wake up every morning is truly a gift. But knowing that the time that you close your eyes at night or holding your girlfriend before you leave or saying I love you to the ones you love, could be the last time has to be the scariest feeling in the world. I guess, when I leave, that can be the last time I ever see my loved ones again, its life and it really does throw unexpected things at you that you have to work your way around. Recently, this summer I told my friend to not leave the party we were at, I told him ar could find a way home and he left anyways to go home, and he never made it home. I never got that text from him knowing he made it home okay.. losing someone that you just saw minutes or days ago, can tear a person a part, not only that, its just that he's gone and we cant see his face, hear his voice, nothing. A month after that, my friend jasper drown.. and just November 24th, my friend Jake was killed in an accident.
Death is not what gets me down, its the thought of not having them around. .. heaven was needing hero's, he took a few of the best.
You inspired many and you'll be remembered. We will learn to cope with your loss, but the pain wont even decrease. But please know, that we'll all get through this together and that we will all be okay, eventually.
Rest in paradise. <3 Sweet Angel. reply
Crazy_Beautiful202
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1 decade ago
I was just going through my comments. I never realized how much we actually talked.
Crazy.
I miss you.
How are you?
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
Thank youuuu.
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
I just got your comment.
I wanted to post back too tell you how much I appreciate your comment. It all means so much to me, knowing that I'm being heard.
Thank you again.
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
Thank you dear.
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
Can you believe it's been over a year since caleb has passed away?
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
There isn't one doubt in my mind that you wouldn't be proud of how far Aubree and the little ones have come so far. It's crazy too think about you being gone for a year already. You were so outspoken and so easy to talk too with such great advice. I never understood the reason why God takes the most loved ones from us and leaves us feeling so empty and such a big void in our hearts. Kenley has your blue eyes and you can hear you in Braxton's laugh. Those two babes are so blessed to have had you as a daddy and it's so heartbreaking that you're not here to watch them grow up, but we all know that you're watching over them and keeping them out of harms way.
I hope Heaven is all that you have dreamed it would be. I can't wait to receive my spot up there when my time comes.
Rest In Heaven Caleb. You're missed by so many.
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
If you go to my page, I have a picture of Shayla and I on my profile and a long thing to read below it.
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
Thanks. I'll remember that. It means a lot to me, I really do appreciate it.
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
It's devastating.. I'm devastated.. and trust me, I'm trying to hang on and keep moving forward the best that I can. /:
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foreverbrokenhearted · 9 years ago
It must be! I can't imagine what you're going through! Just trust me when I say this, I'll always be there for you! <3
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
Thanks. I'll remember that. It means a lot to me, I really do appreciate it.
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
Don't be sorry. <3
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foreverbrokenhearted · 9 years ago
You're best friend's story :'( please please stay strong <33
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
It's devastating.. I'm devastated.. and trust me, I'm trying to hang on and keep moving forward the best that I can. /:
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foreverbrokenhearted · 9 years ago
It must be! I can't imagine what you're going through! Just trust me when I say this, I'll always be there for you! <3
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
Thanks. I'll remember that. It means a lot to me, I really do appreciate it.
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
What's uppp? (:
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
Well, I'm very sorry for your loss. When I was in 8th grade, A girl in my grade killed herself. At that time, It was a very shocking and hard thing to move forward from, but within time, it gets easier. Not now, not tomorrow, not months from now, but time does and will take it's toll and it will become easier.
I didn't exactly lose my best friend to suicide, but if you read my profile, it explains how I found out about it and what has happened. Ever since, I've let my life spiral out of my control. I just got so caught up in grief that I completely forgot that I'm alive and I have the chance to live.. Me being able to graduate is riding on the line right now, I have a drinking problem and I've been caught up on pain killers, anything to subside the pain for just a little while. I've been getting help, counseling and everything so hopefully it gets better.. But I can just tell from now, this summer is going to be absolute hell without her and far after.
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
Also, If you ever need someone to vent to or anything, just leave a comment on my page and I'd be more than happy to help out as much as I can.
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
Like I've said before, never take anything for granted. Tomorrow isn't promised for anybody and that goes out to everybody. I don't have many friends either.. I'm a girl who you'd see out at the parties on the weekend and barley awake during school. Everyone who I usually talk to are the ones who always ask me where the party is at and honestly, if I didn't party, I wouldn't know half of them nor would they talk to me.
Shayla and I had a bond the first time we even talked and we hit off from there. I didn't need anybody as long as I had her to talk too or if we weren't by each other we could at least text. She is supposed to be graduating this year and I can't even think of it as her being gone without falling to my knees and crying. I'm going to keep on pushing forward though and I'm going to accomplish my goals I've set for myself and I know that if she was here, she would be doing the same thing and keep her loved ones near and I know that she would want the same thing for me as well.
You aren't unloved. I can't stress that enough. If you weren't meant to be alive and breathing right now, Trust me, you wouldn't be. There is a reason you're still here on this earth and I mean it and you may have to wait your entire life time for your answer as to why but I know that you will get the answer you've been waiting for.
Sometimes, you gotta live for the ones who can't do it anymore.
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
It does.. Because I can't even begin to explain what I wouldn't give to have her back again.
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
THank you. I put it on there in hopes of it to actually be read. It's so incredibly hard. I
I'm happy you read it though, it means a lot to mee. She was my best friend, my main girl.
Just remember, never take anyone you love for granted because I did ''cause I always thought I'd have a tomorrow to apologize or a tomorrow to tell them how I feel about a certain thing.. I was up until 6 in the morning that night and that's why I wanted to sleep in longer and I would always tell her to come over and come into my room and wake me up herself but I just ignored it for some reason that morning and I regret it with everything inside me.. Because I miss her and my life isn't the same and it never will be.
But thank you for commenting and reading it, it means a lot to me.
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ForeverSouless · 1 decade ago
I'm glad to have read it. And stories like your really show just how short life is and that you cannot take anything for granted.
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
It does.. Because I can't even begin to explain what I wouldn't give to have her back again.
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
I just seen your comment you made on my profile and I'm sorry I didn't get back to you sooner.
I'm glad that I know someone read it. I was bawling my eyes out while I typed the whole thing out. It's a nightmare. She was my main girl, my best friend.
I'm happy you were touched by it. Just please know to never take your loved ones for granted, ever. If you have something you want to tell someone you care about but you don't think you should, do it. Because you will regret it when you won't be able to have that chance anymore and you knew you once did and Always live like it's your last day because tomorrow isn't promised. Just remember that.
Get back to meee. (:
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
You have no idea how much that means to me.. I want to be heard by people from all different places. I want to know that I make a quote and that it's going to be read and liked and maybe change someone's life or maybe their outlook on something. Yes, I lost someone who I loved more than I loved myself almost 4 months ago.. I haven't and will never be the same person. It almost kills me thinking how much I've took for granted and all the times I had with her for granted when I knew I never should have but I still did, thinking that there is always going to be a tomorrow.. A tomorrow to say I'm sorry.. A tomorrow to say I love you.. A tomorrow to see the person who you swore you couldn't ever live without.. After how many times I've said that I wouldn't be able to live without my best friend, my biggest nightmare became reality.. A broken and devastating and excruciating painful reality. I'm so glad to know that someone has been through something similar so they can relate and be able to understand more about the feelings that come with this.. People who haven't experienced something like this doesn't even know the pain and permanence this has..
I'm here if you need anything also!
Thank you for commenting once again. It means a lot!
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
I saw your quotes, I thought I'd let you know, you're so inspiring. Your quotes, can bring tears to my eyes. I really don't get how you can do it.
My advice to you for whenever you're feeling super low ; Put your best face on for the world, fake another smile and just pretend. But you're just putting off the pain, nothing's ever really going to change. So let it hurt, let it bleed, let it take you down right down to your knees. Let it burn to the worst degree, it may not be what you want but it's what you need. Sometimes the only way around it, is to let love do it's work, and let it hurt.
I'm always here if you ever need anything, don't hesitate to ask.
reply
Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
Dear, ive went through all of your quotes, I smiled at every single one besides one of them, " it scares the out of.. that this time next year, ill be dead." After that, I just broke down. Getting to wake up every morning is truly a gift. But knowing that the time that you close your eyes at night or holding your girlfriend before you leave or saying I love you to the ones you love, could be the last time has to be the scariest feeling in the world. I guess, when I leave, that can be the last time I ever see my loved ones again, its life and it really does throw unexpected things at you that you have to work your way around. Recently, this summer I told my friend to not leave the party we were at, I told him ar could find a way home and he left anyways to go home, and he never made it home. I never got that text from him knowing he made it home okay.. losing someone that you just saw minutes or days ago, can tear a person a part, not only that, its just that he's gone and we cant see his face, hear his voice, nothing. A month after that, my friend jasper drown.. and just November 24th, my friend Jake was killed in an accident.
Death is not what gets me down, its the thought of not having them around. .. heaven was needing hero's, he took a few of the best.
You inspired many and you'll be remembered. We will learn to cope with your loss, but the pain wont even decrease. But please know, that we'll all get through this together and that we will all be okay, eventually.
Rest in paradise. <3 Sweet Angel.
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 1 decade ago
I was just going through my comments. I never realized how much we actually talked.
Crazy.
I miss you.
How are you?
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