This was supposed to be a really good night. I mean I had a halloween party to go to, great friends to enjoy it with. Obviously can't do that knowing your life can be taken away any second. It got way more serious this morning..like really serious. Spent the whole day crying in school..I love you way to much, please don't leave me now. You are the best thing that has every happened to me. You make me happy when I'm sad. Sitting here, looking at you. You look so lifeless. Guess what I just watched..the video of what hurts the most by rascal flatts. I'm sobbing, that's gonna be me when you leave. I always have faith in you, I know you can make it through this. But I can't let you go through all of this pain! I just can't. Even though you won't be here with me. You better believe that I'm going to cherish every thing that happened when we were together. You told me you wanted to break up with me just out of the blue, on one phone call. I hated/ loved you so much. I wondered why. Then I found out your reasoning..you don't want me to see you go through this. Just to let you know, I'm not going to leave you. As hard as it is for me, its 10 times more harder for you. You are my rock, my bestfriend, my boyfriend, my lover. You mean everything to me. Life is going to be hard for the both of us, even harder for you. Just know I'll be with you when I can. Spend every second with you. I love you<3
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