wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. Ou come home from school one day. YOu've had yet another horrible day. YOu're just ready to give up. SO yo go up to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over nad over and over. YOu take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close you eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, you little brothere knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you;re asleep. He tells you mom this. YOu mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She greabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up, She's screaming your name. YOur brother, so confused, runs to tell dad that "mommy is crying and sissy wont wake up," Your dad runs to to your room. Hools at your mom crying, holding the letter to her chest sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, whats going on, and he screams, HE creams and throws something at the wall. ANd then falling to his knees cries. YOu mom crawls over to him and they sit there holding each other, crying. The next day at school. there's and annoucment. THe principal tells everyone. Everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. The popular girls they think of all the things they've said to you. That boy that teased you he cant help but hate himself for not telling you how beautiful you actually are. Youre ex, the one htat told yo everthing, then broke up with you... he cant handle it. he breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the room wishing he knew before it was to late. Your best friend, she cant cry she cant feel anything. she stands up and walks out of the class and just sinks to the floor, shaking and screaming, but no tears will come. At your funereal the whole town came, everyone knew you, the girl who was always happy that was there for everyone. everyone is crying your little brother looks at your body he doesnt know what happened just knows that you died. He is crying you were his sister the one that was supposed to be there for him. YOur best friend she stays strong until they started lowering the casket then she just loses it she cries and cries and doesnt stop for days. Its two years later, the whole school talks to counselor/therapist at least once a week, the popular girls now have an eating disorder, the boy that teased you, cuts himsef, you ex doesnt know how to love anymore and just sleeps around wiht random girls, your best friend? she tried to kill herself but failed, Your brother? found out what really happened, he now self harms and everything that you did that lead up to your suicide. Your parents marriage fell apart, your dad is a workaholic to distract himself from your death, your mom was dignosed with depression and just lays in bed all day.
People care. You may not htinks so, but they do. Your choices don't just effect you. They effect everyone. Don't end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can't get better if you give up. I'm here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we've NEVER talked before, i'm here for you.
Dont make a permanent decision for a temporary problem.