darkvlader · 1 decade ago
you kind of look like a girl in my school, lol
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
haha, cool
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zigtaz · 1 decade ago
You are inspiring in a way... I really don't want you to hurt yourself... You really pulled at my heartstrings. I can only hope for the best for you...
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
i wont do that again, well im not so sure, but im trying hard:) thank you, and hey i read your comment on my quote, if you need someone to talk to im here!
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MySecretReality · 1 decade ago
hey there its pervey_sage_girl! well... kinda. this is my new account. Follow for a follow?? thanks <3 :)
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Rajsonkar · 1 decade ago
hi karmen
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
hello
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Rajsonkar · 1 decade ago
whats up beautiful :)
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
just packing my clothes, you?:)
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Rajsonkar · 1 decade ago
chatting :)


why are you packing ?
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
im going somewhere for a weekend:)
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Rajsonkar · 1 decade ago
wow ... lucky :)
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justkiddiing · 1 decade ago
hi, been a while since I heard from you, you ok?
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
Hello, sorry for the late replying. I'm alright I guess, how are you hun?
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justkiddiing · 1 decade ago
I don't really know.. finals comming up, like tommorow. I don't know, After this, I'm out of high school, I'm going to university, it what i always wanted, but I'm kinda scared it will be a dissapointment. what's up with you? is it just the feeling (because believe me "the feeling" is bugging me a lot too at the moment) or is something kinda wrong?
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
Well good luck with your finals! And I think that you shouldn't think about it, or get excited, you'll see how it will be when you get there.. dunno really, im just feeling numb I guess, yeah that's probably it..
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justkiddiing · 1 decade ago
yea.. I know it.. btw, it's hard not getting excited when I'm finaly getting out of this shithole with all those narrow minded people. I really wish I had more to say to you, I noticed you hadn't posted a quote for a while and I became worried something happened, you can call me paranoid
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
Yeahi know how you feel, really. I've been busy with life, trying to get better and i had major problems with school, i just didn't have much time to go on computer. It feels good knowing that someone cares really.
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Happy Easter budd :3
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
Happy Easter :3
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
How is everything budd ? I'm not seeing you online a lot these days :/ xx Are you okay ?
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Loving the new pic budd :) Beautiful <3 Happy New Year as well :) I hope 2013 is good to you <3
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
well, thank you love, but im really not.. and happy new year to you to, we both deserve a good one! <3
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
You are ;) xxx and we do indeed :) Any resolutions ?
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
Believe me,I'm really not, and I'm not saying that for attention. Anyways, no I haven't made any, because I would eventually break them... What about you? Xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
I know your not :) and I have one , but it's not for me :) I'm gonna help two close friends with their recoveries :) I wanna see them smile again , so that's my plan ;)
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
aw, thats really sweet of you:) xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Its what I want :) See i'm leaving this country in the summer , and I dont wanna leave them behind like this :/ god only knows what they'll do :D
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Carly Natasha* · 1 decade ago
hey, youre so beautiful seriously, please stay strong and positive? i know thats hard to hear, and i know because im going through alot aswell, but please dont cut again? it breaks my heart everytime i hear about it.. and you dont even know me.. :)) sorry i sound like a creep ahah x
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
im not really.. but its hard to be strong, i'v tried, i can honestly say that, but after a month, well i just broke. i've been clean of cutting for so long, and i did it again, and it feels good, but wrong but i cant do anything about it.. x
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Carly Natasha* · 1 decade ago
yes, you can do something about it. Dont focus on the bad things in your life. Remember that when your at your lowest, the only way you can go is up, lovely. So many people care about you, and you need to stop before something bad happens, and you dont deserve any of the pain , seriously. :)♥♥
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Hey my love <3 How you holding up ? x
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
hello there love! well, i won't say im getting any better, and i wont say its the same as before. im maneging to just live atm. havent thought about cutting myfelf in a few day now, so yeah. im getting there. but maybe thats because im on holidays, i can do whatever i want without my parents me about it. im affraid of going back to school, cuz i knlw everything will come back at me. but yeah, whats up there, how are you? xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Yeah I know that feeling :) Nothing too major is going on here to be honest :) But i'm dreading going back to school , like seriusly i'm actually scared of it :) This one chic has been being a complete all holiday to me and i'd really rather not deal with her :P xx And you know how christmas is , so much food :/ So i'm struggling
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
good luck with going backto school aye! maybe that girl will leave you alone? yeah i know, how are you dealing with it? xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Ugh I really don't wanna go back , and the chic is an a/shole and has always been , but she never really bothered me until it became an online thing :) I guess because I don't really escaper her comments . She's one of the people that are never pleased , no matter how hard I try . As for dealing with it , i'm kinda just ignoring her , and pretending that I dont care , but I do. I haven't done anything stupid though , she hasn't pushed that far yet . She did once , but that was a while ago.
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Hon , your posts are worrying me , is everything okay ? Whats going on ? x
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
im not gonna lie, im not okay. its just i cant escape my mind you know? its haunting me, i cant take it.. its just getting worse and worse.. xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Okay right , did anything happen , how is it getting worse ? is there any reason why ? <3
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
you know before i would just cut and release this pain, but now i cant cut, and all that pain is in me.. its eating me alive.. xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
You are worth so much more than this. You and me were both put here because we can do this , we can get through this , together. We gotta do this together <3
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
yes we will. we can do this, we can get through this. <3
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Okay babe , you need to try and distract yourself from it. It's not gonna be easy , but you'll have to try. I think the only way at the moment is to cause physical pain in a healthy way. Execise is great for this. Its like nighttime where i am , or i'd reccomened a jog or something , but do sit ups or punch things or just scream into a pillow so no one can hear. You need to let it out somehow. If its not possible , try explaining it to me , maybe that'll help :) x
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
i do exercise y'know 30 minutes per day. i feel better for like an hour and then its get bad again.. and i dont know what to do anymore.. xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Okay , yeah i get you . Is there something that triggers how you are feeling ? or is it just a constant thing going on ?
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
constant thing..
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
hmm okay x You may not believe me , but I'm always going to be here. I may not understand your situation completly , or be able to describe exactly what you feel , but I know bits of what you're going through , and I want to try to help. Everytime the urges to self harm or end it come back, I want you to write to me , Write how you feel , whats going on , hell even what you had for breakfast that morning , and i'll try and make you laugh and help in any way i can. This isn't how it's meant to be for us. We're at an age where we should be out partying , worrying about our hair or nails , and what homework we havent done. This isnt how we are supposed to feel . I'm never going to leave , I'm never going to lose hope in you , and I'm going to get you through this , together. There is always a reason to fight , I promise you , you just gotta fight to see it . You may not feel it now , but the way you're feeling will change . We are going through puberty honey , our brains are full of chemicals , thats all this is , chemicals. And yeah it sucks , yeah you feel down a lot of the time , but we gotta get you past that. Find you things that ditract you from your pain , things you enjoy. Before this kicked off , what were your hobbies ? What subjects are you good at ? Whats your passion? These things are safe ways of escape. Sometimes they won't work , and sometimes you'll slip , but thats why I'm here. Never Lose Hope <3
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
you dont know how much you made my day by saying all of this. literaly. thank you. and for you hun, if you every need someone i'll be here, i'll listen, i'llcare. you know i've been to psychiatrist today. they said i had three options. 1st go to hospital 2nd get meds and 3rd talking with the psyhologist and if it doesnt get better the'y would put me on meds. i chose the 3rdoption. maybe ill get better, maybe. maybe ater some time, we'll all be better.. and again love, thank you, youre the best! xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Oh honey that's great news :) I'm so happy to here that :)) this is the beginning of things getting better :) ad thank you , I've had news today and I've been struggling a lt today .... X
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
what happened? xxx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Long story short , my aunt have cancer :/ and I'm on a school trip and my mum spoke to the teachers and they re all fussing over my eatig an stuff
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
aw im sorry to hear that. how's she doing? where doeswhere excatly does she have cancer? hm, where did you go on your trip? dtry not to listen to them, but promise me you'll eat normall ? stay strong! x
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
I don't actually know x she lives in a different country to me , I jut saw the Facebook status saying 2/10 chemo sessions done ... An I'm in Poland :) came to Auschfitz for history trip xxx and I can't promise you anything but I can promise I will try x
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
chemo therapy helps. i hope ahell get better x oh how cool, how is it thre? i also wanted to go there with school but the trip got canceled:| aw, well thats a start:) so how are you love? :) xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Yeah i just found out that its terminal breast cancer :/ But she'strong and she'll fight it all the way :) Yeah Kracow was cold but we did lots of shopping and stuff ;) Auschfitz was really moving and sad , but its on of those things you just gotta see for yourself :) And as for how i am , Its end of term here so all is okay , but my best friend's leaving so i'm not looking forward to going back without her :P All the girls in my year are such :P So yeah i spend most of the day in tears .... never wanted a blade so much in my life :P xxx How about you ? x
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
yeah seh will!:) oi, thats cool. i really want to go to auschfitz once, but first im going to england:) yeah i know what you mean, but please dont do anything to yourself, you gotta stay strong ! x yeah um, im so so. had a pretty good day today and also m going out tomorrow. i just cant wait y'know. to get wasted and have fun, i really need that:) xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Yeah you deserve it <3 I'm actually suprised I haven't done anything . I''ve had two panic attacks and I've cried so hard I couldn't breathe and I can't remember things ..... Today has been a day :P But i'm glad yours went well <3
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
what happened today? and im proud of you that you didnt do anything to yourself! <3
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Okay babe , you need to try and distract yourself from it. It's not gonna be easy , but you'll have to try. I think the only way at the moment is to cause physical pain in a healthy way. Execise is great for this. Its like nighttime where i am , or i'd reccomened a jog or something , but do sit ups or punch things or just scream into a pillow so no one can hear. You need to let it out somehow. If its not possible , try explaining it to me , maybe that'll help :) x
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Hey honey :) How you holding up ? <3
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
hey love, im barly holding on, its so hard y'know.. but, how are you? <3
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Yeah i know love <3 I'm getting better ... but recovery is hard at the best of times :/ especially when friends/family try and force feed you :P xxx
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
im glad you're getting better:) just keep strong you'll get trough:) xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Aaah I wouldn't say better , I just control ED with SH ... But it's something :) <3 Have things gotten worse up your end ?
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LoveWillAlwaysBeForever · 1 decade ago
You're beautiful <3 and stay strong <3
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
thank you! x
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LoveWillAlwaysBeForever · 1 decade ago
You're welcome :)
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Javvi69 · 1 decade ago
Stay strongg <3
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lalabuddynumber1 · 1 decade ago
hi beautiful if you ever need to talk to someone you can talk to me :0
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GodsGurllyyGurl · 1 decade ago
hey thanks for the follow. I feel the same way as like your quotes. Youre really pretty though
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Yourbeautiful* · 1 decade ago
Well you need to start beileving it because it's the truth<3
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Yourbeautiful* · 1 decade ago
Hey, Can I just say that you're one of the most beautiful people on Witty<3
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
Sounds like your mum is a lot like mine :P xxx They dont understand do they ? Well at least you have your dad , Mine buggered off before i got a chance to speak :P xxxx Please don't end it all love <3 I love reading your quotes and feeling like i'm not alone . You don;t know what you do for me daily. Everything is so hard at the moment , and you're the only person that seems to understand <3
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CallMeK · 1 decade ago
no, they dont. yeah but my dad.. well he knows about my smoking, hes alright with it. he knows about my utting, he said i need to stop. he also yelled at me. be he saw the pain im going through and he cooled off a bit. but i an see hes disappointed in me. hell, everyone is. so whats the pont of living? i cant get help because thdey arent by my side. they want me to be this perfect daughter whos happy, whos social, who has good friends, whos talkative, well im not it. and it pains me even more. im done trying, if they will give me up for adoption, do it. just fu/king do it. i cant promise you anything, i cant. lets just he for how long i can be like this. but thatn you, it really means a lot to know someone cares, and understands! <33333 xx
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ChubbyMushrooms · 1 decade ago
I understand. I have family members who have cut and they shout at my for my reasons. Its almost as if they have a bigger problem to they are allowed to and i'm not. My email is ellieholmes@rocketmail.com , i can acess it all day so email me anytime if you need someone to talk to right away. I'm always here for you , not matter what people say <3 I'm gonna be that one person who will never leave <3 xxx because it sucks when people leave x
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