I AM: A Jig-Saw Puzzle Mystery, a fighter, a true friend, a person who's seen an almost death, a girl with many scars but still try's to find the light whenever it's dark. You don't need or have to know me, but if you want to, all you have to do is pay attention. You can figure me out. ;)
Apparently it's my faimly's fault I'm depressed, okay yes, it runs in families. But so is my self harm? Yeah I know that for a fact that it's not actually. I get it. It runs in families, But seriously? I don't get why someone is going to just dismiss it, because "well there you go it runs in your family." Uhm. no.
And he hugged me and whispered to me... "You're not alone Together we stand I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand When it gets cold And it feels like the end There's no place to go You know I won't give in No I won't give in Keep holding on 'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through Just stay strong 'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you There's nothing you could say Nothing you could do There's no other way when it comes to the truth So keep holding on 'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through" ~Avril Lavigne Keep Holding On
I don't like what I'm becoming, I'm frighted by what i'm thinking. I'm not thinking of the end, I'm just thinking of how pain can transend. I don't actually want to, But oh how I want to. This is scary, & This could end up bloody. I don't know what to do, I just keep crying out: "Boo-who" My life is actually great, So why is it to the depressed that i can relate? I'm a mess, & under too much stress, I want to fight these thoughts of mine, It's liek the'yre commiting a kind of crime. I'm scared, But I know I'm not alone. I got friends and family that love me, and a boyfriends that's crazy about me. so what's wrong with me? Why is it that I can't see, the cause of this mystery?
There was this one time in high school, that a boy and a girl made out in front of my locker. I had somehwere to be, and they weren't moving, so I readjusted my backpack, and said: "You know, you can get mono from that." The girl walked away so fast I thought she might of been running. Since then, my neighbor has hated me even more.
Dear A$$wholes on my way home: thank you for flipping me off and passing me on a main road when I was going 5 over the speed limit, Also thank you for 5 minutes later, going 5-10 miles UNDER the speed limit. Thanks for the laugh. Sincerly, Me.
hkjhjkfdhskfshkjdsh k This is the class that never ends, It goes on and on my friend, The professor started talking Nobody knew what is was, But now we're stuck in here in class, Not knowing what's going on And I think he just asked a question But I have no idea what it was. jfdkhgkjfhdkjghdfkjhgkdf
I feel I'm falling falling back. Back to where I once was, back to where I didn't like myself, back to where I should never be. I'm scared. I want to, I don't want to. The idea intrigues me yet again; But I know it shouldn't I've been there before I don't want to go back, I don't want to be back here.
I didn't want to say it. I didn't want anyone to know. I don't want anyone to worry about me. I don't want anyone to have to carry burdon. I don't want him to worry. I don't want him scared too. I didn't want to say it. But I said it... it just came out... He got scared... He's worried... I didn't want this to happen. I was scared, I AM scared. He didn't let me be alone, He held me, He stayed with me, he was there for me. He promised me: "We'll get through it, we'll figure it out together."
I wanted it... I wanted the satisfaction from it; I wanted to feel that pain again... I wanted to feel the cold blade against my skin... I wanted to feel the sting of the metel in my skin... I wanted to see the blood ooze from my wrist... I wanted to find a place no one would find it... I wanted to... But I didn't want to feel that pain again... I didn't want to feel the sting of the metel in my skin... I didn't want to see the blood ooze from my veins.... I didn't want to... So instead I took the razor... ...and shaved my legs... ...and threw the razor away; I got the satisfaction of it... I didn't hurt myself... I didn't.
BubbleWrap7 posted a quote
November 23, 2012 8:13pm UTC
When you lose a friend who was never who you thought they were. When you lose the boy you were crazy about. When you try and try and try to do what's right, but all you get is a door slammed in your face. When you realize you never stopped loving someone, even though you still miss another as well. When you just want to cry and cry and cry. When you see yourself fighting for everyone else... When you realize no one has been fighting for you. When you realize you're done caring, When you realize you're done trying, When you realize you're done crying, When you realize you're done FIGHTING!