SO You Want To Know A Little About Me?
First, IM IN LOVEE WITH ONE DIRECTION♥
I Know ALL the words to all their songss!♥
My Fave Song of theirs is 'One Thing' and 'Gotta Be You'! (But i LOVEE all the songs)
My Fav. Memeber is Niall Horan♥ I Know I shouldnt pick favorites, but Niall has that 'One Thing'(; I Have Fallen In LOVEE With Him♥
Im Going to their Concert in my State (Missouri!) next yearr!♥
Im a simple girl.
I live in a small town.
I Love Country Music♥
Im VERY easy to get along withh!
Wanna be friends? Just Ask!
If you have any problems or just want someone to talk to, Im Your Girl!!(:
Im On Twitter, Follow me! @Briannamccoun
If We get to be Good Friends, Ill Give Ya My Number and Facebook Name!(:
Read my quotes and tell me if ya like them!♥
My Friend that is a Senior. He knows about me cutting, and my sucidal thoughts, and my family problems. So he made me an appointment with the counsler and she made me call my parents and tell them about me cutting and all that other stuff. It was soooo hard... They BOTH started crying... Thats exactly why i didnt wanna tell them. I dont like hurting people. But, Im going to get help. Professional help. Thats if we can afford it... I Hope We Can. Thank you guys for always being here with me, Thru the pain, and thru it all♥ THANK YOU.
A Girl Forever Gone Her Face Is Puffy and red, While painful tears stream down her sad face. She cries out loudly, Hopeing someone will her her silent screas. So Many voicing going through her head, Telling her how beter she would feel if she were dead. She places her shaking hands over her ears, trying not to listen. She yells out once again for help, Yet noone comes to her rescue. Then shee remains siting there on the cold bathroon floor While the clock ticks by. Her body starts to shake uncontrolably, Unable to stop at all. Starting to relize that none cares, Feeling so alone and helpless. She finally come to a desicion that there is only 1 thing left to do. She brings her shaking hands together, Closes her eyes and prays. She speaks to god 1 last time, and this is what she says: " Lord. im so tired of the pain inside. it just wont go away. I cant shed anymore tears. it hurts. The voicees in mty head wont go away. My Heart aches so bad. Noone loves me, noone cares, noone wants me and noone can help me now. I tried being the girl that everyone wanted, but i just cant do it anymore. All i wanted is for someon to love me, God. Was that to much to ask? Im so sorry god, But i have to end my suffering the only way i know how. Please... forgive me for what im about to do." She opens her eyes, for 1 last time she quickly grabs her razor blade She forces it against her wrist She starts slitting her veins, Deeper and deeper The blood pours on the floor, all over Feeling weaker and weaker.. becoming more unconscious The Blade drops from her hand, she collapses on the floor, The Girl that noone cared about... is finally, No more.
Alright. Im Done. Im Done with all the Sh*t. Your jokes arent funny. They hurt me alot. But i try not to show it. Noone cares. Because if they did.. they would help me. But Noone does. I...I just wanna die. Take me away. Now. I Beg of you. :(
Heres My School Schedual. Wake Up. Pretend im okay. fake smiles. get home. cry. cry some more. and lastly.. Cry myself to sleep... I Just wish all this pain would stop. :( Is that really to much to ask? :'(
The girl who seemed unbreakable....She Broke. The girl who seemed so Strong...Finally fell and crumbled. The girl who always laughed...Finally cried. The girl who never stopped trying...Finally gave up... And that Girl... Is Me.
The New Me is Scaring me. Im never happy it seems like im ALWAYS crying when im at home Im always cutting Everyday i put on a fake smile Ive thought suicidal ALOT Im loosing friends because of this "new" me I Just need help...... Im so worthless.. Im helpless.
(Lol this is what me and my friend Hannah Were just textin about) She is a witty girl. Look her up! ( HannahKennison) Me: This is how i would seduce Niall Horan into bed *Gets a peice of toast* *Gets Into Bed* NIALL. NIALL. I HAVE TOAST. COME AND GET IT BOY. COME ON. TOAST. Her: .... LOL :) Haha i love our talks about the boys (:
I dont know why im still alive. Maybe those people are right.. maybe i should go die. Im just tired of pretending EVERYDAY that im okay, when on the inside, im not. my Few friends tell me that they worry about me... i dont see why :/ huhh.. im just tired. :'( People at school know that i cut now.. people know ive tried to kill myself.. they try to help me... but it just doesnt work. I honestly dont see how they think im "Pretty" or anything. They must me lieing. Im Tired of it all. Just... Tired :'( I need serious help.