Guardian Angel
Chapter 1 Part 1; Another to Sleep in the Sky
Sometimes, my world feels like a scarf wrapped a little too tightly around my neck. Choking me. Strangling me. And no matter what I do, I can't loosen the scarf, or numb the piercing pain. It feels like everyone else has gills and I'm left gasping for any particle of air I could breathe...drowning. Everyone else around me can fly high to the scattered stars above my thoughtful mind, meanwhile I'm left on the ground forgotten, trying to make my way through the neverending storm.
Nobody ever asks if I'm okay, though. Nobody could ever see beoynd the fake smile I paint on my face everyday. But at night, when I wash the paint off, the smile vaniishes and the mirrored reflection of my face becomes distorted in my tears.
My scars are fading, yet I break my vow to stop, and I pick up the blade. Sharp as a devil's glare. It's like drawing lines on a canvas; however the pencil is my blade, the canvas my wrist. A river, no, a waterfall, of rose red blood- as red as a sore thumb or a blushing cheek- floods out of my flesh.
It hurts, I won't deny that. But the pain numbs the depression burning my insides.
The next day, I've run out of the paint I brush onto my face. I walk slowly into school- tears in my eyes, scars visible, no more smile- and I'm just in time for assembly.
"We have such terrible, tragic news...one of our students is no longer with us. She's joined the stars in the sky. God has gained one more beautiful angel to watch over us. We'll miss her greatly, she will be remembered. Farewell, Amber Williams, bless your heart. You will never be forgotten".
Some people are whispering in sudden shock of her disappearence...and some are crying. No one acknowledges me at all- because, I guess, I am no more.
I commited suicide last night, and now I am here:
a guardian angel.
Note: Wooowww that was long!