side by side, we were standing. you are the shadow of my childhood. dark and behind me. at least i would like to keep you behind me. side by side, unavoidable. i wish you knew and were responsible for what you have done in the past. not just you, but what you represent. when i see you i just remember how it was back then. i don't know what grade i was in. I must have been around 10. we were good friends before, we were all close and so similar. then out of the blue, i wasn't fun to hang around with anymore. i don't know why you made me out to be the weird one. you were the centre of the group, you could have reversed it. i couldn't speak up for myself, i was too taken aback. a group of friends, people who made me look forward to going to saturday school had suddenly decided for me that i would from then on dread saturdays. this is from years ago, i am for the most part over it. the part i'm not over is the awkwardness between us. i'm not okay with being made the strange one. i was left alone and over the years everyone seems to have forgotten the part they played. "why are you so quiet? howcome you never hang out with us? it's been ages since we last saw you." that's the part i'm not over because it's still ongoing. idk if i'll ever get my closure. if they have forgotten then so be it. i can't control what happened. i want to hug my past self. tell her she didn't do anything wrong. friendship is God's test for you in this life. i've realised this now. it's okay. i can't say that it won't continue to hurt you, but if anything it hurts less often.
Dim that spotlight. Tell me things like, "I can't take my eyes off of you." I'm no one special, just another wide eyed girl, (who's desperately in love with you). Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, Superstar.
I'm a lifeless face,that you'll soon forget. And my eyes are damp,from the words you said; ringing in my head,when you broke my chest.And if you're in love, then you are the lucky ones. Cause most of us are bitter..over someone.
i love a “we can talk about anything and not let it get awkward” type of vibe. its so cool. so when you find someone who accepts you for you, someone that always listens and helps you without judgment. keep them.
“When we invest ourselves in deep personal relationships, we take a risk. We could always get hurt. The more we expose ourselves, the greater the potential for pain. No one can hurt us like someone we’ve trusted with our heart. No one.” [saw on tumblr]