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I'm Chesney. I'm 15. I smile in inappropriate situations and laugh too loudly. I have a few best friends. I live for the big guy in the sky. I love Noodles. I'm heartbroken by a guy that I've never even dated. I love Zebra Print. Fluffy blankets and pillow pets are the best. Taylor Swift and He is we are probably the best in the whole world. I live in Mississippi. Sometimes, when I get mad, I say stuff I don't mean. I have severe depression. I have ADHD and Dyslexia, except I'm too scared to tell anybody because I don't want them to feel like I'm worthless. I want to be an Oncologist. I hate growing up. I want to stay young forever.  ♥
  1. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    April 24, 2012 8:29pm UTC
    I see your fake smile
    Because believe me, I know that smile. I know what it feels like to reply, "I'm fine" when someone asks how you are. But not because you're fine. Just because you're used to saying it, that you don't even think about it anymore. You don't even realize the question is being asked. Your response is just so rehearsed that it just comes out with no effort.Just like that beautiful smile. It breaks your heart to lie to those you love. It's so hard to tell them that everything is fine. But it's even harder to tel them the truth. You don't want to be in such a vunerable state. You can't handle that kind of pity. But you have to believe in me when I tell you you're not alone. I'm here for you. I understand that reflection you see everynight. The one you don't even recongnize anymore. That same smile you've been wearing for years to fool everyone into thinking you're fine, has finally fooled you. Just for that split second, when you look in the mirror and see that stranger smiling back at you, you believe it. You actually think you might be happy, but then your heart starts to hurt, your body starts to ache, your tears start to flood and all the memories come back. You're not okay. You're not happy. You're dying from the inside out, and nobody even bothers to notice. You feel like you're here alone and everyone has given up on you. But you have to believe me, You're not alone. I'm here. I'm right here holding your hand I'm rubbing your back as you cry on my shoulder. Even if you can't hear me or see me, I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. Because I know what it's liketo want to just throw it all away and say "Forget it" I know what it feels like to think "I'm not worth it. Nobody cares about me, and everyone leaves. So it's my turn. I'm going to be the one that leaves this time, and leave them hurting and alone." But you are so incredibly worth it. Your life matters to me. Even if we've never talked, or I don't even know your name. I'm here for you and I care about you. and I care about you. I don't want you to go anywhere. I know it's tough, but hang in there. Do it for me. Do it for everyone that's ever told you they loved you. I'm so sorry you have to wear that fake smile everyday, but stay strong. Stay Strong and hold on to the mystery of tomorrow, beautiful. ♥

  2. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    April 8, 2012 7:18pm UTC
    When you hit rock bottom, Theres no other way to go but up
    nmf

  3. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    March 17, 2012 8:00pm UTC
    nmq/nmf
    "I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest" -T. Swift

  4. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    March 17, 2012 7:55pm UTC
    Depression takes away the one thing you thought could never be taken away-yourself.

  5. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    March 17, 2012 7:51pm UTC
    "I hate getting too close to people,
    because when I thought they would
    always be there for me, They eventually leave"

  6. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    March 17, 2012 7:48pm UTC
    I know how it feels to sit on the edge of your bed Head in your hands wishing it would all just end.

  7. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    March 17, 2012 7:41pm UTC
    Nobody knows the real meNobody knows how many times I've sat in my room and cried, How many times I've lost hope. How many times I've been let down. Nobody knows how many times I've had to hold back the tears, How many times I've felt like I'm about to snap but don't just for the sake of others. How many times I've felt like running away. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head whenever I'm sad, how horrible they truely are. Nobody knows me, and thats what I hate the most.

  8. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    March 17, 2012 7:34pm UTC
    Trust Me..I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you, and waiting for everyone to fall asleep so you can fall apart.For everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.

  9. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    February 12, 2012 7:07pm UTC
    You sure do know how to make me feel like crap.

  10. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    February 10, 2012 7:44pm UTC
    I want to wake up with the sweetest messages. I want to go to sleep with a goodnight call. I want to be your One and Only. I want to be the girl you show off to all your friends. I want you to teach me how to play a football. I want you to be the one holding me while I fall asleep. I want to watch the stars with you. I want to watch silly love stories all day with you. I want to build a fort with you. I want to wake up and the first thing I see, is your bright eyes staring back at me. I want you to teach me to play those silly video games. I want to wear your sweatshirts to bed. I want to go on roadtrips with you. I want to know what its like to be your girlfriend. I want to roll down a big hill with you. I want to go to the movies. I want to be with you. I want to hug you. I want to kiss you. I want to spend forever with you, but that'll never happen.

  11. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    February 6, 2012 6:06pm UTC
    Heres to the girls that; Are heartbroken by a guy they never even dated.

  12. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    January 20, 2012 4:50pm UTC
    The Classic 'Player' You two will meet. Either online, through friends, class, etc. He'll flirt with you at first when you two meet and you flirt back because you're too foolish to see the lies behind his smile. He'll ask for your number and because you're so hypmotized by his way with words, you give it to him without even thinking about it. He'll text you for the first time and you smile. Actually thinking he is into you. You two have a flirty conversation, and get to know each other a little better. But then, it begins to become a habit. He will text you "Goodmorning(:" Everyday. Sometimes he will add 'babe' or 'baby' on the end, depending on his mood. You guys will talk about how cute the other one is. He'll keep telling you how beautiful you are how much he "Likes" you. How much he wants to see you. How you're the only girl. etc. I could go on and on. Sometimes he'll even feed you the line that he wants to be 'more than friends' but he's not quite ready for it. You laugh it off and agree thinking that your time with come with him but then, you will get to the point where the texts become less common. He doesn't always text you right away in the morning. Sometimes it will come later on in the day, if that. There won't be anymore smiley faces.There won't be any more fights of who is cuter and there will be no more mention of him wanting to hang out with you. Soon, the texts become nonexsistant. You're just another number in his phone. Everytime your phone rings, you hope that its him, but it ends up just being a friend asking for a favor, or a stupid question. You have to fight the erge to text him everyday. You get jealous seeing that his status' saying that he's hanging out with 'other people' soon, You'll see him talking to another girl. Same smile, same laugh, same body language, flirting, etc. Finally, it clicks. He was just using you. Hes moved on to his next victim. It all becomes real after that, and the hurt becomes worse. You'll occasionally make awkward eye contact in the halls, acting like the other doesn't exist. Like nothing happened. and like that, you are just another stranger. Just two people in the world. All the butterflies are gone and replaced with the feeling of heartbreak and not feeling good enough. That's the worst part. Knowing that he was everything to you. Your first thought in the morning, the last thought before you fell asleep. The person that you always daydreamed about. You were absolutely nothing but another name in his phone. He wasn't hurt, thats all that matters. He got what he wanted. Sounds about right. Am I correct?

  13. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    January 13, 2012 10:14pm UTC
    Sticks and stonesMay break her bones but words will make her starve herslef to death.

  14. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    December 27, 2011 10:20pm UTC
    I'm gonna need a parachute, To save me from this fall. Not my quote. Not my format.

  15. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    December 20, 2011 11:17pm UTC
    No. I'm not the same
    as I was a year ago. A year ago I was singing in the shower. I was smiling. I was dancing around the house because I was in love. I was imagining our future together. I went to sleep smiling. I was honestly happy. I went to school and actually paid attention. I kept my grades up. A year ago, I didn't start crying everytime I heard that song. I didn't hate getting online because I knew I wouldn't see a picture of you and her. A year ago, I felt beautiful. I felt flawless. I didn't know what it felt like to starve myself for perfection. I didn't know what it was like to hate life because I had you. I had you to look forward to every day. I woke up and knew that I had something to live for. Now I wake up and hate facing reality. Yeah, I have changed in the past year, and it's been hell. I miss how it was...

  16. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    December 19, 2011 3:04pm UTC
    Everybody is different. Mayday Parade. Taylor Swift. Demi Lovato. Thriving Ivory. Black Veil Brides. 3OH!3. Justin Bieber. Train. Cody Simpson. Kelly Clarkson. Avril Lavigne. Adele. Bruno Mars. Akon. All Time Low. We The Kinds. The Spill Canvas. NeverShoutNever. Craig Morgan. Keith Urban. A Rocket To The Moon. Jesse McCartney. Theory Of A Deadman. Lil' Wayne. Hot Chelle Rae. Ke$ha. Sara Evans. LoveSick radio. The Summer Set. The Script. Anna Nalik. Jacks Mannequin. Tenth Avenue North. The Fray. Katy Perry. Rhianna. Paramore. Eminem. Howdie Day. Hollywood Undead. Usher. Metro Station. Boys Like Girls. All-American Rejects. One Direction. Jessie J. Jason Aldean. Corey Smith. Ron Pope. Lights Out. Taking Back Sunday. Matt Nathanson. LifeHouse. Pink. Toby Mac. One Republic. John Mayer. SugarLand. Miranda Lambert. Stero Skyline. Hellogoodbye. HeyhiHello. The Cab. Carrie Underwood. Dixie Chicks. Runner Runner. Switchfoot. Secondhand Serenade. The Downtown Fiction. A Day To Remember. Chrisitna Perri. 3 Doors Down.

  17. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    December 19, 2011 2:41pm UTC
    I don't understand How you sit there and watch her cry. You Sit there and see her falling apart, Yet You do absolutely nothing about it. Did you know that right now she is sitting on her bed in complete darkness blaming it on her. She can't stop crying. All she does is see a leaf fall from a tree and she just breaks down. She looks at herself in the mirror and points out all of her flaws. She doesn't see that she's beautiful. She sees the dark brown hair that just isn't pretty and she sees her freckles that keeps her face from being beautiful. She sees all the flaws that you mentioned to her. She lays in her bed at 2 in the morning and stares at the ceiling. She can't think straight because all she can think about is the memories. She decided to get her mind off things and turns on the radio, except Your song for her is playing. She drops to the floor and curls in a ball. The tears start pouring down. Suddenly, It's morning. Her mom comes and wakes her up and she starts getting ready for school. She smiles for her mom. She doesn't want to seem weak. When she sees you in the hallway at school her heart sinks. Her stomach clenches, but she still smiles. She thinks about how two nights ago she was staying up all night just to talk to you. She thinks how theres only 3 more hours of school until she can go home and repeat last night all over again, but something is different about tonight. She doesn't lay in her bed. She lays on the cold bathroom floor with blood all around her. She couldn't take it anymore. you broke her. You crushed her. How could you do that to her? You killed me.

  18. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    December 14, 2011 6:34pm UTC
    I'm trying to get over you. I really am, but everything I do, say or think, reminds me of you. It hurts.

  19. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    December 13, 2011 8:10pm UTC
    I MISS YOUI miss staying up all night talking to you. I miss dreaming about you and actually smiling about it. I miss getting a message and knowing it would be you. I miss seeing your brown eyes. I miss seeing you do that flippy thing to get your light brown hair out of your eyes. I miss the way I could be myself around you. I miss how I told you all my problems and you helped me. I miss how you'd always call me beautiful .I miss how you'd always tell me goodmorning and goodnight. I miss how you'd always yell at me when I called myself ugly. I miss how you'd treat me like you were my brother. I miss how you'd always say the sweetest things. I miss the way you'd look at me. I miss the way we were always happy. I miss being myself. I miss laughing. I miss being happy. I miss having my best friend. Can we go back a little while? I miss you.

  20. BeautifulDiaster BeautifulDiaster
    posted a quote
    December 13, 2011 12:57pm UTC
    HAPPYBIRTHDAY Taylor Swift.

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