AerilynLilyoh

Status: life isn't the same without you

Member Since: 28 Mar 2012 07:12pm

Last Seen: 27 Jun 2015 03:49pm

Location: drowning

Gender: F

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I'm mostly just stupid.

Top quotes on June 11, 2012 and October 27, 2012. Thank you ♥

AerilynLilyoh
posted a quote
November 6, 2013 5:06pm UTC

Why are boys so complicated?

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AerilynLilyoh
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September 16, 2013 8:34pm UTC

every day is a constant struggle between the part of me that wants to die and the part that is fighting to stay alive

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AerilynLilyoh
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July 2, 2013 11:52am UTC

Turning 15 today.
It's kind of crazy, isn't it?
I didn't expect to live this long.
I didn't plan on it, that's for sure.
But I did.
And I'm kind of proud about that.
I made it through these last few years.
They haven't been easy, at all.
But I've made it.
Hopefully the next few will be full of laughter, happiness, and fun.
Maybe in these next few years I'll be eating normally and not thinking about cutting.
I guess the only way to know is to keep going.

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AerilynLilyoh
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April 26, 2013 11:33pm UTC

If God is all you have,
you have all you need.

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AerilynLilyoh
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April 15, 2013 9:19pm UTC

death is a comforting thought

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AerilynLilyoh
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April 12, 2013 9:54pm UTC

But seriously, why don't guys like me?

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AerilynLilyoh
posted a quote
April 8, 2013 6:27pm UTC

I want to catch you looking at me.
I want to see you smiling at me.
I want you to text me goodnight and goodmorning.
I want your friends to look at me, and smile, because they know you like me.
I want you to think I'm pretty.
Iwantyou.
Iwantyou.
Iwantyou.

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AerilynLilyoh
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April 7, 2013 12:06am UTC

I have to vent. I've been having these mixed feelings about this one guy for a really long time. He asked me to go to prom with him, and I said yes. A few weeks later, our principal told us that we weren't allowed to bring dates to the dance, because of something a group did last year. (It was a really dumb policy, there was still slow dances and stuff.) So, prom was tonight, and on the first slow dance, he asked me to dance with him. So we were talking and dancing and laughing and I swore for a second that maybe he liked me, and maybe I liked him back. A little while later, me and one of my friends, who is considered as one of the "popular" kids and people don't understand why she hangs out with me, he asked her to dance. Being the third grader that I am on the inside, it crushed me. I don't think that I like him, but whenever he flirts with other girls, I get really jealous. Like, not when he's just talking to them, but when they're full on flirting. Him and I have been really good friends since we were little, so it seems weird that I might like him. I just don't know what to think. I can't tell whether I like him or not, and it's killing me. I know it's stupid, and totally not worth fretting over, but I am anyway. If you read all that, thanks.

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AerilynLilyoh
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April 2, 2013 5:29pm UTC

I just hate myself so much.

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AerilynLilyoh
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March 30, 2013 12:27am UTC

& I said that I would never become the person I became

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AerilynLilyoh
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February 19, 2013 4:48pm UTC

In English, we had to write a poem, it could be about anything. I came up with two, and I wanted to know what you guys thought and which one I should hand in.
'Skip one meal' Ana whispers into her ear.
One turns into two,
She hasn't eaten in a week,
but Ana attacks,
"you're still fat.'
Counting her calories,
'I've already ate,'
Her goal was 10,
but it's turned into 28.
But Ana's not done here.
Starvation is not enough.
She grabs something sharp,
and makes a small cut.
One time turns into two
and soon it's every night.
A razor across her skin,
makes everything alright.
Little monsters beat on the wall
Everything that's wrong is in
Her mind.
You deserve the pain
Pull the blade across your skin
Let all the bad things out
Let all the little monsters out.
Little monsters beat on the wall
The worst of the pain is in
Her mind.
Cut a little deeper
Let the pain flow
Let the relief flood
A little deeper.
A little deeper.
Little monsters in
Her mind.

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AerilynLilyoh
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January 26, 2013 8:29pm UTC

♥ Road to Recovery ♥
Day 26
This is not thought it was going to be.
Some days I eat three meals.
Others two.
And some nothing at all.
It's those days that I eat nothing that I feel like I've accomplished something.
Like everything is going to be okay.
And then I eat three meals and I feel like crap.
I feel fat and ugly and worthless.
I thought this would be easier.
That on January 1 I'd wake up and eat and everyday later I'd be okay.
But I'm not.

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AerilynLilyoh
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January 26, 2013 8:07pm UTC

If you ever need to feel better, watch Demi Lovato's Stay Strong Documentary.
It always helps me.

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AerilynLilyoh
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January 8, 2013 11:03pm UTC

I was talking to my nine year old sister today.
She's not like how most of you guys percieve third graders.
She doesn't have a phone.
She still plays with Barbies.
She believes in Santa.
She asked me if I thought she needs to lose weight.
She said she thinks shes fat.
What? Why is a nine year old thinking like this?

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AerilynLilyoh
posted a quote
January 4, 2013 11:33pm UTC

Every time that I think about you, it's like a piece of me breaks off.
For the next few days I'm broken.
All I can think about is your smile.
And the way you said that you loved me.
I need you.

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AerilynLilyoh
posted a quote
January 4, 2013 11:31pm UTC

There are nights when I just sir here and think about you.
I read our facebook messages.
And all the texts I never bothered to delete.
You know, the ones that you said you loved me?
The ones that you told me I was beautiful?
The ones that you told me you wanted to be together forever?
I miss you.
Why'd you have to leave?

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AerilynLilyoh
posted a quote
January 4, 2013 11:28pm UTC

Why couldn't we have had the kind if relationship I would be glad to be out of?

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AerilynLilyoh
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January 2, 2013 6:39pm UTC

This whole recovery thing is going to be harder than I thought. I'm just so freaking fat and ugly.

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AerilynLilyoh
posted a quote
January 1, 2013 6:35pm UTC

...Road to Recovery...
Day One (January 1)
7:37- woke up, went into the bathroom, looked in the mirror and told myself I was beautiful.
8:15- after taking a shower, made breakfast. (+102 calories)
10:30- workout (-200 calories approx.)
12:30- ate cake without even caring (+180 calories)
5:30- made supper (+248 calories)
Total:: 538 calories

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AerilynLilyoh
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January 1, 2013 11:55am UTC

Starting off 2013 with breakfast and looking at myself in the mirror and saying that I'm beautiful.
#roadtorecovery

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