I really, really hate crying in front of people.
You may now think I'm a total wimp, who can't hide any feelings.
You're wrong if you believed so.
I know my pocerface is perfect, it's really not a big deal for me to hide anything. I can lie just as good as you all. I can fake smiles just like that and I can cheer up people even when I'd rather scream my lungs off.
Yes, I'm able to hide it but as soon as I talk to that one person, I feel helpless.
It's like I change within seconds, it seems like I turn into some baby. A whining, scared baby who needs somebody to care about it.
It's horrible.