if people were rain, I was a drizzle and she was a hurricane.
" I fell in love the way you fall asleep. Slowly, then all at once. "
my name's nadiya. I'm an overthinker, a pop-punk-rocker (ahaha *cough*) and a writer.
+ You Me At Six, All Time Low, Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, Fall out Boy. Spending time on the internet, reading, eating, writing, singing, dancing. Friends, playing guitar, family and sweets, of course.
- drama, divas, homework, work in general, intolerance, selfishness, bossy people and arrogance.
I am a hilariously open person - ask me whatever you wish. Feel free to talk to me,
those 'stare-from-a-distance' crushes are crazy. I didn't actually believe it'd be possible. but it is - it really is, and it's hilarious. I feel hilarious. everything I did was watch him and oh my god, he is so cuute. just the way he smiles makes me feel so damn happy. I don't even know his name.
smiling bitterly, not knowing what to say, feeling the urge to run away. - that's how my days go by. only now I realize how stupid I've been, being my silly self, a hilariously idiotic teen. - seems like I don't even try.
I'm not needy, and I don't get jealous easily. It's just - I love her. You may say I'm crazy, but let me explain myself. I could slap everyone who talks sh¡t about her. She's awesome. But look, in some awkward way, I'm glad some people don't like you. It sounds like I am obsessed with you - wait, maybe that's true, duh, but let's not forget what we're talking 'bout - and that means I don't want you to feel hurt. Obviously. But when people don't like you - it's simply easier. There's more of you for me to love.
If your 8 year old self would meet you, would they be proud? Feel free to tell me in the comments. In my opinion, the younger version of me would probably be proud, just a little, If I'd explain what I go trough every day and night. Get what I mean?
Why would you like someone who can’t like you back? The question is rhetorical but.. here's the answer to it: You like someone who can’t like you back because unrequited love can be survived in a way that once-requited love cannot.
I tell myself I'm a strong person. It's probably true because if I wouldn't be strong, I could not forgive everyone, like I do. [ No matter how much they've hurt me, I forgive them. ] Obviously, they do not forgive me. I can accept that, although it drives me crazy. Why can't they forgive me? Even I can forgive myself. That. Is. Freaking. Hilarious. Damn, they should be able to show me how strong they are, at least once.
I like being reminded of the fact that there'll be someone.. I just have to wait, and even if it sounds a little sad, waiting is the only possibilty I have. The fact that there's only one simple thing I need to do get the chance to be loved, is unbelievable. I'm sure promising myself a bit too much, but I don't care. So here I am; waiting. I don't know how long it will take, but I know it'll be totally worth it.