My name is Britnie, I's a 13 year old seventh grader in Spencer, MA. I live for friends, family, soccer, music, food, & One Direction! Hehe. I play soccer for Knox Trail Junior High and the town of Spencer #31! I'm here for you whenever you need somebody to talk to and somebody who will listen & not judge. Because everybody makes mistakes. & I've made more mistakes than anybody could count. You are all beautiful. Stay strong<3
I'm a lover not a fighter. But I'll fight for what I love
I never thought I'd be the type of girl to cut her wrists. And when it started, I never thought I'd be the type of girl that anybody would really worry about. I never thought I'd be the type of girl to lose her life to this. Untill I almost bled out..
Me as a 10 year old: bicycle radio spongebob squarepants pretend cell phone if I was lucky, 30 minutes on the computer GAP clothes cheap barbie nail polish lip gloss and $5 perfume 10 year olds now a days: motorized scooters iPod touch Jersey Shore iPhone 4 Apple laptop designer clothes from Foreign country's $50 manicures every piece of makeup imaginable and $100 perfume WELL DONE SOCIETY.
Just A Dream Chapter 1 James looked at me with huge, round eyes. "No Addy." was all he could choke out as he stood there, arms still open, waiting for me to jump into them like I had so many times before. Too bad today I had to break the news to him. Instead of hugging him, I looked down at my feet, tears silently dripping from my eyes. "Addy.." His voice sounded strained and distant. I could feel him staring at me, trying to make me look into those beautiful green eyes one last time, hoping some how, it could make me stay. "I'm, sorry, James." I could barely speak as I adjusted my bag to sit on my shoulder more comfortably and hurried away with shaky legs, and makeup bluring my vision. I got home and threw my bag on the kitchen table. "Stupid!" I shouted as I hit things and threw things. "Stupid, stupid, stupid girl!" I ran out of steam and sunk to the groud on my knees, eyes fully crying now. "Why?" I sobbed. James was the perfect boyfriend. Tall, muscular, sand colored hair that was just perfectly wavy, and piercing green eyes. But, he was just too good for her. She had dark brown hair that fell in choppy layers just above her shoulders, smoky brown eyes, she wasn't really skinny, but she wasn't very curvy either, more awakward looking than anything. It was a miracle they had lasted this long. James was the captain of the football team at their high school while Addy was just a flute player in the band. James was popular and liked by every one while Addy was hated by the entire cheerleading squad and hungout with her two best friends Leah and Sabrina, who were the two smartest girls in school. James wore expensive clothes from stores like Hollister, Aeropostal, and Abercrombie, and Addy wore clothes from GAP and Faded Glory. She had never felt so opposite, yet so similar to somebody. They had been a couple for a year and two months. But she had suddenly broken up with him and he had no idea why.. (FAV OR COMMENT PLEASE?(: NEXT CHAPTER SHOULD BE UP SOMETIMES MONDAY)
I find it funny how certain people make one stupid mistake, and it's like their entire reputation is ruined. What the heck? Some people could make a million mistakes and still be accepted. I hate when a group of kids gang up on one person. Grow up. We've all made mistakes. Why should theirs ruin their lives?
*I know it's long, but please read!* So my boyfriend Nathan and I have been together for one month this Friday. And I already couldn't imagine life without him. I mean I'm not like, in love or anything, but I'm in a serious relationship with somebody who truly loves me and sees the beauty in me that I don't always see in myself. He does have some anger issues, and his therapist doesn't help much, so I do have to whatch what I say around him so I don't set him off and upsett the both of us. But I don't care. His blue-gray eyes are the prettiest things I've ever seen. And the way he blushes when i hug him, and how he gets butterflies when I call him baby, it makes me incredibly happy. And the way he's always telling me I'm beautiful and how happy and grateful he is to have me. And how he's nick named me princess. He's convinced me to stop cutting. But.. his past haunts him. His dad beat his mom, he got stabbed, and he almost killed somebody. He's overcome it to become an amazing boy.. but.. it haunts him still. He has nightmares every night and if he texts me and I'm not up to calm him down, he freaks out. He's always remembering the most horrific things and it ate and ate away at him until.. he was in the shower, and he had an image of him as a seven year old whatching his drunk dad beat his mom. I mean, he doesn't even live with his real family anymore. He smoked to calm him self down. But, he quit, just for me, after so many years, he quit just like that. For. Me. And when he had that memory in the shower, he cut. And his foster mom admitted him into a mental hospital. He'll be there for atleast two weeks, and there's no way I'll be able to contact him while he's there. And the worst part? He's gonna miss my birthday.. What's he gonna do when he's insecure and he needs me? Or when he has nightmares at night? I can't bear it. It's been only four days since he's been gone. And I break down every day. I know I need to be strong but I just miss him.. It's like half of my heart was ripped away and taken from me. The last words he said to me were, "you be strong for me ok?" I can't be strong Nathan. Not when you're not here to help me. I'm so tempted to cut. But I would just dissappoint myself and hurt all of my friends who've pushed me to over come this whole situation. So, I'm trying to be strong for you baby. It's just so hard..