suicidal thoughts race through my head my heart rate increases i run to my room holding the tears back, trying not to scream i go into my jewelry box in search of the only thing the one thing that calms my nerves the one thing that helps me forget it’s so tiny but so strong i grab it and wipe off the dried blood from last time i look at my arm seeing all the pale white scars thinking what is one or two more? i place the tip on my wrist and feel it pierce my skin i close my eyes tight as i pull the razor across my arm slowly feeling the warm blood drain from the fresh wounds oozing slowly down my wrist I repeat what i have just done my heart rate decreases to a slow bump bump....bump bump my eyes open blood shot and burning the razor is still in my shaky hand i just watch the bloody mess on my arm get bigger suicidal thoughts still in my head i throw my razor far away from me so i don’t make any more of a mess My body wants the razor back wants to feel the cool sharp blade draw across my skin again i look back at my wrist once more realizing what i have just done going back to my old habits not knowing where to go a feeling of disappointment and hate comes over me i am helpless my suicidal thoughts controlling my every move...
just please next time you tell me that you love me tell me not to believe you cause i know it is a bunch of lies. you love him and not me, i can tell by the way you defend him and you can careless about me.
you broke my hear into a million pieces i cry myself to sleep every night. i always want to be friends but right now it seems so hard you act like its nothing i try and put on a fake smile for every one when on the inside all in doing is dieing. you fell out of love with me you say i wasnt ready for our relationship but i think now it is you that wasnt.cuz now im sitting here broken hearted in the dark my chest killing...its ove really over..i wish it could be easy to say bye but i want to hold on to somethhing i want so bad i cant stand to say good bye.i juust wish you would relize what you have done to me. wish you could see the pain you have caused..it feels like you could care less and less bout me!!!!
Day 1 - Your BestFriend. Day 2 - Your Crush. Day 3 - Your Parents. Day 4 - Your Sibling. (Or Closest Relative.) Day 5 - Your Dreams. Day 6 - A Stranger. Day 7 - Your Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Love/Crush Day 8 - Your Favorite Internet Friend. Day 9 - Someone You Wish You Could Meet. Day 10 - Someone You Don't Talk Too As Much As You'd Like Too. Day 11 - A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk Too. Day 12 - The Person You Hate Most/Cause You Alot Of Pain. Day 13 - Someone You Wish Could Forgive You. Day 14 - Someone You've Drifted Away From. Day 15 - The Person You Miss The Most. Day 16 - Someone That's Not In Your State/Country. Day 17 - Someone From Your Childhood. Day 18 - The Person That You Wish You Could Be. Day 19 - Someone That Pesters Your Mind. (Good Or Bad.) Day 20 - The One That Broke Your Heart The Hardest. Day 21 - Someone You Judged By Their First Impression. Day 22 - Someone You Want Too Give A Second Chance Too. Day 23 - The Last Person You Kissed. Day 24 - The Person That Gave You Your Favortie Memory. Day 25 - The Person You Know That Is Going Through The Worst Of Times. Day 26 - The Last Person You Made A Pinky Promise Too. Day 27 - The Friendliest Person You Knew For Only One Day. Day 28 - Someone That Changed Your Life. Day 29 - The Peson That You Want Too Tell Everything Too, But Too Afraid Too. Day 30 - Your Reflection In The Mirror.